where have you been?

i was feeling all at seas regarding my life and where i'm going. you can thank recent graduation ceremonies for kick starting this quarter-life crisis. wonder how much more freaked out i'd be if i were physically there and not just cyber stalking away messages that celebrate the whole range of feelings?

i could very easily be sad about people moving onto their new lives, but i'm not there so i can keep pretending life back home is normal. just the way i left it. i'm still detached, so it's easier for me to think of the fun times. i'll fast forward through all the lonely times and spend my days daydreaming about how we'll meet again and exclaim, "it's been so long since last we met!"

how long as it been? and then we'll break out into song and dance and laugh at the end. laugh like we always used to do, late into the night as we sat through weekly meetings that lasted for hours and hours.

oh, but it didn't seem like such a chore to us:


(there's so much i need to say about this foto, but for now i'll just stick to pointing out: 1) dom manhandling kemi 2) emily and max. hahaha i miss it!)

i'm going home in 2 weeks. has it been 6 months all ready? it was all fine and dandy, but BAM as soon as finals come you realize that everyone is already done and you want to dive into summer too. speaking of which, i still don't know what's going on this summer. i tried to figure it out months ago, but it's all gone to shit now. on the plus side, at least i've figured out that i'm actually pretty good at this whole rejection deal.

i feel great. life is beautiful.*

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*i mean that without one drop of cynicism.